I can’t remember, she wept…
My mind doesn’t work the way it used to
I’ve tried to see the lines and colors
Shapes are there, but the substance lost
Now I fear that it’s gone forever…
He smiled; a soft loving smile…
Give me your hand, my dearest lady
Close your eyes and feel my heart beating
Touch the deep furrowed lines in my brow
My jawline and its tangled growth…
I’m afraid of what the future holds…
Every day another hurt becomes my truth
Another pain changes my outlook
Sometimes it’s too dark for me to even see
Something the world is telling me…
Well I remember; so let me remind you…
Rest your head upon my shoulders
Wrap yourself up in everything I have to give
My warmth is your warmth, my light as well
Everything I have, I give freely to you…
But, what about you, what will you do…
You cannot simply put your life on hold
Waiting for something that might never be
You need to make some new dreams
Maybe ones that don’t include me…
But my love, there is no me without you…
Each time I breathe, I feel you within me
My soul feeds upon our memories
Your love flows through my veins
And you essence in my heartbeat…
I’m lost, she cried, just let me be….
All I want is for you to be happy
You’ve already sacrificed so much
Taken time to care for me
More time spent than should have been…
Time well spent, that I’ll keep spending…
My love for you is never-ending
I was nothing until you smiled at me
Gave me purpose and made a man of me
I was blind, but now I see…
No, she said, that wasn’t me…
You always had those things inside
Maybe you were afraid of being judged
Uncertain of how other might see
But none of you, became from me…
I disagree, for I know myself…
Long ago, before anyone else
My life was flat, my mind was bored
Each day simply passed; no real accord
Satisfied, but in no way sanctified
A tiny smile; her lips upturned…
Seems a few moments coming through
Our fateful meeting in the evening hour
Two souls; both searching for something
And yet not realizing what they found…
Each day we paint a masterpiece…
Some filled with magic and ethereal light
Others filled with darkened hues
But our creativity; amazing nonetheless
And every brushstroke a story…
Tell me tales of our love, my dear…
Whisper that which I’ve momentarily forgotten
Tell me what the future holds
Some days I wish for a merciful release
No more pain and no more fear…
I feel you; more than perhaps before…
Our energies closing in as the months passed
The bond of love even stronger
I’ll be there to hold your hand
As we step across the river together…
And if I fall, she stated plainly…
Maybe the rapids will drag me away
Down into the cool blue depths
Peacefully and quietly
My light will slowly fade…
Fade it may, but for a moment’s time…
With purest heart and a soul filled with love
I’ll dive in and pull you back
The breath of life in a single kiss
Time and time again, you’ll see me…
I’m surrounded by black clouds…
They come at night as if waiting for something
I feel them rooted inside of me
Clawing and grasping for something
But also still confusing me…
Try and try they will always fail…
Our love is beyond their comprehension
A fortress of two souls that have become one
Stronger than any blackness
Our love, the light, will forever shine…
Author’s Note
My beautiful wife, who I love infinitely is fighting an aggressive cancer – each day I watch her endure pain that I cannot imagine and yet she thinks of everyone else around her and how they are feeling – her heart is bigger than anyone could imagine and even in her time of need, she puts the needs of other ahead of her own; especially mine. I am humbled, blessed, and so thankful she is in my life. Our journey has just begun and we expect it to be a tough battle, BUT, not an impossible battle.
If you think you or a loved one may have breast cancer, please check out this link and seek treatment as soon as you are able.
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(There is a series of 5 separate poems which start with the one above)
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