I’m lost…
Time has come to a standstill
I’m wracked with a deep stiffness
An uncomfortable plaguing feeling
The scent of your perfume still lingers
It’s on my clothes, my hair, my skin
It is a constant, continuous reminder
Of the last time we touched one another
Memories invades every thought
Gnawing at the threads of my sanity
Always about the “then”
When things were different
Instead, it’s the “now
Emptiness my constant companion
To turn the hands back
With what I know now
Instead I wait in vain
This hard wooden chair my prison
The walls around me blank
The colors muted and devoid
Swollen eyes and weakness
Hope seems nothing more than a word
Still holding tightly to that last moment
Movement occurs
But neither forward nor back
A trapped feeling
The limbo that now haunts me
Upward vision gives me no peace
Prayer furthers the confusion
My cries go unheard…
Come back to me.
Hurried whispering
Please come back to me
I’m listening
Tell me again about everything
Another chance
I’m begging you
This time it will be different
I promise…….
Words are more than just sounds, more than just random noises to fill in the spaces between things, more than just a way to tell a story or sing a song, they are one of the things which makes us human. When lovers share words, they aren’t just talking, they are sharing senses, they are engaging in an act of love, with a back and forth switching of listening and speaking, changing positions at will, sharing passions and also moments of utter sadness. The ecstasies of communication are an act of lovemaking on a non-physical plane. Ignoring your partner is like falling asleep during a passionate kiss…..
-R.J. Schwartz © 2016
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